He thinks i am fine, i am a 32 year old woman
I am Married & working as a teacher :)
He is my husband not a stranger
Married since 2013,its been more than a year now, almost. Who cares about it,as far as i am with him. Living happly but still get angry when he forgets our anniversary n my birthday.
But sometime i feel jealous because of his friends not just female but male too, and of his gadgets.
Not because of insecurity but just that i want him to be with me all the time.
I know its not good but i am in love with him, everyday i fall in love with him. The more i think of him, i fall in love with him.
Anyway what are we talking about
Sorry i get carried away when it comes to my husband :)
I dont complain about my husband & my kids.
But i feel he loves me a lot, 365 days a year but at times i feel i dont return the to him.
He has to deal with me in all tricky situations.
Its been a year, i never felt i should leave him & go back to my mothers place
But for few days in a month i feel irritated, angry. Hope you know what i mean.
I know he loves me. But then he never realised why i m in bad mood every month due to hormonal change.
Anyway, that is a natural process, no need to be shy but does not mean we publisize it.
I have read in books that few backward Indian villagers do not let the ladies to step in kitchen or touch anything when she is going through hormonal change.
Sad,how can a woman be impure to touch anything. But then good atleast she can take rest.
He knows it very well, that i get irrirtated and gets angry easily when passing through that phase every month. But then his stupid question every month which irritate me the most "why is it so "? My auto play reply is due to pain.
His reply was simple, just because of pain you get so much anger. You work, you get up early, make breakfast for us, go to work, you do everything don't you suffer pain then ?
Leave it, used to be my reply.
Life goes on his love for me remains the same,
By the way, am i obsessed with him ? Oops !!
He had stones few years ago and one day i guess may be because of blockage due to stone he had pain in abdomen, he pressed his tummy and folded his legs.
Went to washroom thrice and finally asked the driver to take him to hospital. Due to traffic jam, driver was driving slow & carefully. He informed me over the phone he was suffering, it was like we see in film hero slowly delivers his last dialogue after being hit by a bullet.
Finally, i coordinated with the driver and met them on the way to hospital, and he was venting his anger at all the drivers on the road.
I was calm and worried about him as I was unable to tolerate his pain and see him like this :(
But then at the same time after shouting he was saying to driver thats ok you dont worry drive carefully.
Once we reached the hospital we took him in emergency and
Doctor asked him to take water, gave pain killer injection etc
He was still in pain but then took medicine as prescribed by doctor. The chemist asked him to throw the artificial orange juice and have fresh coconut water. Its his favourite so he had 2-3 along with the driver. Meanwhile, i paid the bill and spoke with the doctor and it was either urine infection or blockage due to stone. Doctor asked us to go back for follow up. Till he was enjoying fluids :) by now he was feeling better.
While coming back driver said sir, why dont you take herbal cystone medicine as you had stones. It can happen again as driver had suffered from a similar ailment, as usual once you are ill everyone tries to be a doctor lol
So husband paid him money and asked to get it from chemist.
Few weeks later, i got pain due to my hormonal change so it was a routine and i was doing household work then was so irritated ended up having a huge baseless argument
By the evening we were ok and happy loving couple as usual
Just talking about normal stuff he asked me why do you behave obnoxiously during this phase
I replied to my husband do you rember the pain you had few weeks ago, and he answer was "YES",
I get the same pain every month. And he hugged me like a baby.
He was quite but i realised he had no words.
But slowly he wispered, i love you
I love u a lot.
And hats off to every woman.
He smiled and looked in my eyes saying, i thought you females suffer only during childbirth
But now i have realised what you go through every month for years , Even before you are a mother till you become almost a grand mother.
Al mighty knows best, after all he created all of us
